Dear hilary
how many years has it been since you were going off to college and you wrote me a letter?
dear hilary
what seemed miraculous then is so faded now, though the time's brought nothing better
after so many years now, i don't even take the time to write these words down legibly
debating over games and how nothing is the same, but i just wanted to drop you a line, dear hilary
dear hilary
how many years has it been since you were going off to college and you wrote me a letter?
the hardest thing about opening up to someone is putting so much power in their hands

A friend of mine, who for the most part has seemed to be a bit uncomfortable about my sexual orientation asked me today where i was in my relationship. I hadn't the slightest idea how to answer, then she asked me "well have you said the three little words?" I suddenly felt very cliche and childlike. like any other teenager.

I think it is nice to have her. A clsoe friend who i can talk to about things hwo is a girl. Despite my wave of new female friends here there have been few i could really talk to about things that are important to me. I am also proud of the fact that she talks to me about a lesbian relationship almost the same wayshe would talk to someone in a heterosexual relationship. It makes me feel better.

but my answer to her question, my long babbling awkward answer, yes the way i often babble when it comes to the more gushy emotions, she looked as though it all went in one ear and out the other. But at least it was food for thought, at least she cared enough to ask. And she has now planted a though in my brain, that is festering and twitching about

the hardest thing about opening up to someone is putting so much power in their hands