ok the closest thing i will have to a new years resolution this year:
be better to myself.
Last night i went to bed at 5:30 in the morning
yesterday i ate nothing but a smoothie till 6pm
i am hardly eating, hardly sleeping
i feel like a zoloft commerical symptom.

I feel a bit like a shell, kind of empty, vaguely lost and confused.
fragile

Im afraid i will be broken soon
empty belly, tied mine
weary eyes
dark circles
weak limbs
acid in my throat
and a bit of pot smoke in my lungs

tap me on my side, ill tip over

i feel to helpless to change anything.