I am leaving for philosophy in abou tthree minutes, this will be wuick
why i wanted to make an entry now when i could make it when i get back or during the massive amount of time i have between classes today i dont need
i feel odd, i feel like things are becoming right.
i said it someone lst night and it was true, the reason iw anted to get so far away from hopemills was not just because i hated my dad, why else would i actively choose a school that hardly anyone i knew was going to, ot even be slightly upset and dissapointed when i found out that some people i knew were coming here
i came here to become a different person

maybe i didnt think it at the time, i just knew this needed to be done, felt it.
The fac tis though i actively dislike who it is i used to be.
I can count ht epeople from back home i keep in touch with on one hand, they are a select few, and sometimes i feel uncertain that talking to them is good. but the important thing is that they are people who ic an talk to about the present instead of "remember that time at walmart . . . " mind you memories are ok, but that isnt all i want, reminiscing tends to not feel right for me, i cant explain why
so, between new talks, staying up late with jordan and harold for the millionth time to watch, of all things, Feifel goes West, and admitting a thousand things to myself and hiding nothing . . . yeah i feel better, i think i feel fantastic even.
at the moment little will dissuade me from the idea that things are becoming right with me
(note to self, dont think about going home for the entire summer, it will depress you)