ok so uhmm . . all that stuff i said yesterday, that i was so excited about? my grand master plan
forget it
becaus emother nature hates me
i woke up looked outside, it was pouring down rain, no one wants to wlak to a coffee shop in the rain
and then i read my horoscope, on astrocenter which gives you little forcasts for love career and health that look like the little weather symbols, a big sun for health, a sun with a clou dofr career and a big fucking rainstorm for love, how nice.
everything was against me, including my own fears, so it didnt happen. it wouldnt surprise me if i failed to do it again on my next chance.