my mother is beginning to take my
request for mace seriously
it is frightening and wonderful all at once
a means to protect myself
a way to feel safe
some thing to keep me from what i fear most
my father
i cant tell ehr that
i cant tell my mtoher that i want mace in order to make srue my father doesnt injure or rape me.
tht is the most direct way i have eer said that
i said it directly, i admited that i am afraid that my father would rape me
i wouldnt put it pas thim . . . is that too awful a thing to say?
he isso obsessed with power and power over me that i would not be surprised if it did happen
i am scared.,. truly scared