i feel utterly useless and apathetic
i feel 17 again, just with fewer cigarettes and fewer sharp objects.

i feel whiny and careless and angsty and ugly and short and lonely

and I'm thinking of you

and I am in all sorts of denial. I mean really . . . I wan to give people the benefit of the doubt when they say things about themself that i think are otherwise. But when I want to be right so badly and other people think I am right as well . . . .
fuck

fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck

stop it