There are those moemnts when it hits me so heavily i feel as though i cannot breathe.

i catch my reflection for the first time in a very long time . . and i am reminded . . .

For the first time in a long time i made a playlist on my cmputer of sad songs . . . it has been a while since i have needed it.

I can't get the image out of my head. . no matter how hard i try, when i close my eyes it is there, and it floats above my keyboard . . .

I would like to express my sincerest apologies to anyone who has to look at me . .