i squeeze my heart
between my fists
till i draw blood
begging
in desperation
for the cursed organ's
to die

i cry out for 
my heart to stop
shaking,
for it to 
no longer slam
against my 
defenseless rib cage

The vibrations in my chest
carry to every
vein and artery.
my blood, is stiff,
like a taught closeline
plucked by stretching fingers.
the hum of blood vessels
is echoing through me
tuneless and surreal.
my panic captured 
in sound

with unsteady motions
the current trembles
to the edge
of my fingertips
changing the prints
of my fingers
adjusting me
ever so slightly
shifting my entire existence
two inches to the left
letting my twitch
alter me irreperably
(eh still not happy with it)

(i wanna say thank you to the lovley lovely people who have been leaving me kind notes, if you guys arent careufl you may accidentally resotre my faith in humanity ^_^)