the perfect song, and i need it right now, i dont know why

a song that captures the essence i am still intoxicated by . . .that movemnt that enver ending moviemnt, even when still how still everything is in motion

i thought i had a song that reminded me of that . . . . perhaps i was mistaken

there is supposed to be something for this but i cant find it, there issome perfect song somehwere that describes how i am feeling, there always is . . .

or at least there usually is

but now nothing captures it wuit elike memory and memory still fails to gie it justices, and i am sitting here and thinking of allthe things i have to do and all i can focus on is finding it again

i think that the classic definition of that is obsession . . . isnt it?

yes obsession, it is official i am obsessing . . .

nothing is falling into place like it should, yet i am so happy, so at peace, and i can make my heart pound at highspeeds jsut by recalling a memory . . . .

it this amazing power over mys self

i read my horoscope and want to beleive it, so obviously it msut be faulty for thi sweek.

because it said that love is coming

HAH!

as though love would come at th ened of the week to me when imsot want and can work for it . . and, , , oh dammit i want to beleive it

yet i scoff at it, so that i wotn be disaapoitned ifit doesnt come true

grrrrr

but suddenly i close my eyes and think for a moemnt, my heart flutters and suddenly i dont think about that anymore, i think only about the feeling of movemnt, and any fear or angerslips away

just let it slip away