i get these images ometimes and i want to create them
ideas come into my head and i desperately scrape and scratch and crawl and grasp in desperation to capture them.
my notebooks are filled with sketches, i started drawing her a month ago . . the girl without the arms
she is in pain but she somehow doesnt feel it.
she feels nothing but shock
she has what she has wanted for so long
she is trapped in this eternal moment of wings.
She has something in common wiht me i suppose
not tht it matters
but i wish i could fly
she longed fo ri with every aprt of her, she ached and cried and screamed and died over and over again
her life was that wish to fly
all of herself was dedicated to it
to flying
to that unacheivable thing, the impossible that she thought was only an idle wish, became the msot incredibly harsh and beautiful reality in existance
i want to be able to give up myself for that wish, to fly, to sprout wings in spite of everything, in spite of life nd love and hate and war and fly from ehre, to have what i need and want and cry for each night
to fly